Today I'm going to write out my struggles about being pretty much an at home mom taking care of my kids and trying to work on getting a career going. When I first found out I was pregnant way back almost 5 years ago I was just a junior in high school. Every time I thought about the baby I was excited and wondered what he/she would look like but as I started to show and my teachers started noticing I knew what they were thinking. I was a junior pregnant and going no where. I knew that I couldn't be one of those people that just gives up on my dreams or ambitions. Kaleb and I had many many discussions about where my life would go and how important a career would be for me. I decided to do what was best for the kids and me.
Being a mother would always have to come first even though when I was new to being a mother it was hard to juggle school and having a baby. I couldn't ever let go the fact that Kaden was mine and I would always have to provide for him. Even if something (God for bid) ever happened to Kaleb I would be ok taking care of our kids. Now we have so much going on! I've never really got to the point of providing for my family on just my income alone but my views have changed a little. I'm working slowly at building my business as my children get older and start going to school then my client base will (hopefully) be getting bigger and bigger to where I will be able to support my family also.
I've always wanted to be a respectable person and sometimes its hard to over come the at home mother persona but I sure try to let them know that I'm serious about both being a mom and being someone worth saying, "Here is my friend, Destiny, she's a photographer!" I donno it might seem stupid for some people but getting to see my little baby grow up and blow me kisses for the first time and still get to go out and take those pictures that make other moms cry. Thats what its all about I think!
I know its all worth it, all the constant parenting all day long. Sometimes I do wish I could just have my career and I know I could. Being a full time parent is hard on an every day basis. I get pretty stressed about once a day to the point I want to scream but I give myself a little mommy time out and count to 10 and I'm usually good. I sure hope I can keep doing what I'm doing. Keep the word out about my business word of mouth will hopefully get me into some good shoots! Thats all for now guys thanks for reading my boring "life stuff!"
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